Haikus with keyword: sin

You just went through two losses at the same time: Your father. The girl you were emotionally attached to. Your nervous system is in shock. Your reactions (anger

impatience

emotional outbursts) are not because you’re “weak” — they’re because your system is overloaded. But if you don’t face this consciously

you will keep hurting yourself and others. I’ll break this into two tracks: grief for your father and letting go of the girl. Both matter. You can’t skip either. 1. Face the reality about her (no sugarcoating) You mistreated her. She got hurt. You expected her to show up when you were at your lowest. She didn’t. You got angry again. She left and blocked you. Read that again: she has clearly chosen to not be in this with you. Is that fair? Maybe yes

maybe no. But it’s real. And fighting reality is why you’re suffering even more. Right now you’re stuck in: “She should have been there for me.” That sentence is killing you. It keeps you frozen in anger

regret

and helplessness. Hard truth: She owed you nothing

even if you were close. You wanted her to be there. That’s different. You can apologize in your heart

learn from it

and grow — but you cannot force her to come back

unblock you

or give you closure. What you need to do with her situation now: Stop chasing. No more calls. No more messages from new numbers. Stop building fantasies that “maybe after some time she’ll come back.” That’s emotional self-harm right now. Accept this sentence fully: “Right now

she does not want to be in my life. I don’t control that. I only control how I respond.” This acceptance will hurt like hell at first. But it’s the start of healing. 2. You’re in grief – this is not just “sadness

” it’s a storm You didn’t just lose a girl. You lost your father. Your brain is trying to use her as a “painkiller” for the bigger pain. You keep thinking: “If she was here

I could handle this.” But that’s a trap. Because: You tie your healing to someone who has already walked away. You avoid facing the raw grief of losing your father. What you’re experiencing: Heavy chest

random tears

sudden anger

numbness

overthinking. Feeling like nothing makes sense

like you can’t control your emotions. That’s grief. Not weakness. But you do have a responsibility: To not let your pain turn you into someone you yourself can’t respect. 3. What to actually do now (next 30 days) Don’t just “feel bad” and scroll your life away. You need structure

even if it’s small. A. One thing for your mind every day Get a notebook or notes app. Every day

write for 10–15 minutes: 3 memories with your father (good or bad

just real) 1 emotion you felt that day (angry

empty

guilty

lonely

etc.) 1 sentence starting with: “Today

I will take care of myself by…” This is not journaling to be poetic. It’s dumping the chaos out of your head. B. One thing for your body every day Grief gets stuck in the body. You need movement. 20–30 minutes of: Walking outside (no music for at least 10 minutes

just thoughts) Or very basic home workout (push-ups

squats

stretches) When your emotions spike (urges to call her

cry

shout): Take a cold face wash or cold shower if possible. Do 20 deep breaths: inhale 4 sec

hold 2 sec

exhale 6 sec. This interrupts emotional spirals. C. One thing for your connections every week You needed someone

she wasn’t there. That hurts. But that doesn’t mean no one can be there. This week: Call or meet at least one person: A friend

cousin

sibling

or someone who knew your father. You don’t need a deep talk. You can simply say: “I’m not okay

I just don’t want to be alone today.” If you have no one: join anything offline: Local sports group

gym

temple/masjid/church/satsang

volunteering. The point is: physical presence of others. You heal faster when you’re not isolated. 4. Handling the urge to reach out to her You will want to message her again. That urge will come like a wave. Understand what it really is: Not “love.” It’s pain looking for a quick exit. When the urge comes: Say out loud (or write): “I miss her. I wish she was here. But she has chosen to leave. I will not humiliate myself or disrespect her choice.” Do one of: Go for a 10-minute walk. Drop to the floor and do 20 push-ups (or as many as you can). Write her a message in notes (don’t send). After writing

delete it. This builds emotional muscle: feeling without reacting. 5. What you can learn from this (so it doesn’t repeat) You can’t change the past fights. But you can extract the lesson so this pattern doesn’t destroy your next relationship. Patterns I see: When you’re under stress

you mistreat people close to you. You then expect them to understand “I was not mentally good.” When they don’t

you feel betrayed and double down in anger. Then regret

collapse

and helplessness. That pattern will ruin your future if you don’t face it. What to do about it: Own this fully: “When I’m in pain

I become harsh. That is my responsibility to fix

not others’ responsibility to tolerate.” Consider talking to a therapist or counselor if at all possible. Even 3–4 sessions can help you process grief and anger. Practice this rule in all relationships (friends

family): If I’m overwhelmed

I say: “I’m not okay right now. I might say something wrong. I need some time.” That one sentence can save relationships. 6. When it gets really dark If you start thinking: “I can’t take this anymore.” “I don’t want to be here.” “Nothing matters without them.” You need human contact immediately: Call a trusted person and literally say: “I’m not okay. I need to talk or just sit with someone.” Look up local mental health helplines in your country and call. Don’t overthink it. Just call. If you’re in real danger of harming yourself: go to the nearest hospital or emergency room. This is not drama. This is you being responsible for your own life. 7. What I want you to do next (right now) Don’t just read this and go back to scrolling. Do these 3 things today: Write: One page about your father. Any memory. Any words. Move: 20–30 minutes walk outside

phone in pocket. Let yourself feel whatever comes. Reach out: Text or call one person and just say: “These days I’m not okay. Can we talk or meet sometime?” Then come back here and tell me: What country you’re in (so I can suggest realistic support options if needed). How your relationship with your father was (close

complicated

distant?). The worst thought that keeps looping in your head at night. We’ll go from there. I’m not going to feed you “time heals everything.” Time doesn’t heal. What you do with that time heals. Let’s start there.

世界就是一本書。嗣中書。嗣中經書。嗣中書冊。嗣中先知書冊。 →照明者阿窗 Agen the Illuminator

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書寫聖訊帶來福音傳佳音。他的神聖創造力。 →織字者The Word Weaver

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